Yesterday was pretty bad so I'm just gonna go over some main points. I woke up. Sophia said her dad didn't want anyone over. Dad told me he pretty much wanted me out of the house. Went to Monica's. Ben, Monica and I went to see Music and Lyrics. An angry lady got made at Monica and wanted to start a fight. Mom call during movie. When we left, Monica and Ben get in fight. Monica almost get us killed. I got all mad and pissy. Didn't call mom back. Get home, listen to music. Kathie and dad get home. Talk to mom, she has own place and cell now. Have fight with dad where I yelled. "I don't want to live anymore! I can't handle this!" Then I go lay in the dark, cry and strangle myself. My dad gave me dinner but I didn't eat it. I went to sleep. People call at midnight.
That was yesterday. Today I went to my sister's dedication. I woke up at 8 and got ready. I had to make sure I looked all gothic. I wore my kinda bondage pants and all black. I melting my eyeliner and made a line a couple inches past my eyes. I have a couple pictures and one with my sister but I don't want to show them because I got to see how fat I've gotten. I didn't realised how big I was getting. I can see it in my face, its disgusting. So I'm gonna lose weight to my healthy weight. Well anyway, Kathleen didn't give a very big reaction to me. That made me sad. But it was only because Penny's grandparents were there. She called my dad later and asked him how he let me out of the house looking like that. My dad told me that he was glad and was hoping I would dress like I did. I actually got a compliment at Ihop. This chick looked at me and pointed to her eyes and said, "Eyes." I took that as a compliment but I'm not completely sure if it was. During the sermen, they were like, "We have these pack that have a booklet, a dvd and if you have a movie, you have to have popcorn." I turn to my dad and was like, "I want popcorn." So we got a package thing. I took the popcorn and got rid of the rest. That was pretty much my day so far.