So this was the first day of semester and I only had one new class and the whole day felt so weird. I think it was the fact that I have 1st lunch now. It's odd. I have lunch with Mons, Ben and Steve. I think there was others but I can't remember but it was a small group. I'm glad I have Steve 'cos it can be weird to be with just Ben and Monica but it's school so it's not so bad. Let me just say, I have two new songs, Dig Up Her Bones by The Misfits and My Heroine by Silverstein...wow both beautiful songs. And sadly this From First To Last song, Note to Self is starting to grow on me...well I guess that's not sadly, haha but still I thought I didn't like them, of well. When I start liking something, I start worring that I might me forcing my change and am being what people are saying, that I'm changing to be something I'm not. I don't like how fast I'm changing, it really frightens me like I mean a lot. Should my whole being just change like that? The counselor said that I was changing like everyone does but I don't think he understood by what I meant by fast. I don't know maybe I worry too much. Oh it's Adam Carson's birthday! It was funny I kept saying that and people were like "Oh god..." Haha. So the day started normally. Josh and I were on the bus and he was like I got new AFI songs so I was going through them and was like,
"Nope this isn't them." switch,
"This is a good song." Switch.
"This is a fake." switch.
After that one he was like, "How do you know? You only listened to like 5 seconds."
"That's not Davey's voice and I read that it was a fake."
"How do you know this stuff?!"
"I read a lot. It's on the Despair Faction."
Yeah it was funny. So Chemistry we got new seats, I literally switched to the other side of the room. English...it was so sad Meggs was gone! So out of sheer boredom...I swear that was the only reason, haha. I looked at Zach a little bit. I don't know what it is about him that's so drawing. Really, he's not that attractive, really I'm just saying that but there's something about him. I don't know maybe I just so desperately want to like someone or find someone attractive. We had to go get books and like I sit right next to the books and he like walked around and grabbed a book right next to me and afterwards instead of going around again, he went through the desks and went right in front of me like literally, his leg was like a couple inches from my hand. I don't know why but expected to get a big whiff of some like colone or however it's spelled. He just seemed like he would wear that stuff and I like the smell...but he didn't, haha. Josh made fun of me when I told him this on the bus. He was like,
"What is it with girl and stuff like that?"
I shrugged, I don't know. Girls are weird. Well anyways, I left English and went to US History. Because of classes, I had beat everyone so I decided to put my stuff in the room...yeah that was awkward. The door was closed for once and the only person in there was Zach and the teacher...yeah it was completely silent and I know Zach must have been watching me. It was so awkward. I walked around the desks, put my stuff down and got out of there, quick. So I talked with everyone then went to class. Oh I found out why I blacked out yesterday, it's because she hit a vein. Because your ear has to do with like balance, hiting the vein makes you black out or something along those lines. So US History was same old, same old. Then I had lunch after that, so early. And it was pretty boring. The guys decided to show off their chests and I gave Ben a massage. It was funny this strange guy that knows Ben was talking and Steve was talking about how he loves Ville Valo and this Evan kid was like,
"Why are you talking about loving a guy?"
"I like guys." There was silence. "I'm bisexual...I've dated guys...yeah"
It was funny. I think this guy has never met a guy who has dated guys. I also talked to Becca at lunch and she was telling me how like she thought I hated Kathie more then Kathleen. Jeez my family is just gossip city. I don't hate Kathie and how in this forsaken world could I hate her more than Kathleen?! That psycho wanted to kill me! I don't where the family gets these things. Jeez Lake Chelan is going to be fun. Well anyways, after that was my one new class, Health 2...boring. So Mon and I went. Luke was in there and other than that it had a few unimportant people, haha. A lot of people were gone and guess who sat in front of me! Yup Jordan, the guy that is suppose to talk to me and 'protect me' yet he's never talked to me. I told my cousin that he was popular and would never talk to someone like me. But no my cousin was like, "Jordan's not like that." Hmmhm yeah okay, live in your fantasy world. High school is all about who you are seen with. So Health was completely boring and had a very awkard silence. So after class, Steve's class was right next to ours, photography, Mons next class and guess who I see leave right after Steve...yup Zach. I'm thinking about having Steve make friends with him. Hmm I think I will even though Steve thinks he's pretty too. Oh well I will take that chance, I mean really all I want is to be his friend at least and really that's the truth. So Mon and Steve talked, I had to go to the 3rd floor and I was in the sub-basement. Yeah I caught up with Melissa I. and walked with her to the 3rd floor. May I just say that it was very long walk...too many stairs. In ASL Sophia and I talked. We talked about boys and such. At lunch she had told Steve that he had to hold my hand when I got my cartledge, haha. I scared the shit out of her when I passed out but she's going to do my cartledge. Yay. So we talked then Math was the same too. I just played with Ben's hair all period. He like laid there. The bus was the usual. Oh my god, I'm in so much pain. My ears slightly hurt, my shoulder hurts, my ring finger hurts, my lower back hurts and my left thigh hurts. Jeez I'm just getting old. Haha. I'm trying to remember if anything else interesting happened...found some cute pictures of Davey and Jade...That Misfits song was so awesome, I can't believe I've waited this long to hear them. I need more but my limewire still hates me, it's been like a month and it still won't connect. OMG OMG IT'S CONNECTED! Omg I'm gonna be downloading my little heart out! Oh my god, oh my god. It's like fast and like downloading and like oh my god! So I'm downloading these ones, yay list.
Days Go by oh so Slow by Nightmare of You
Rose of the Devil's Garden by Tiger Army
American Nightmare by The Misfits

And these possibly, if I still have time and it doesn't stop:
A Son of Sam song
Annabel Lee by Tiger Army
A new AFI song or a few
noose by godsmack/tool...i think thats the name....
Days of the Phoenix music video...but that will take hours...

Music: Reflections by Autumn to Ashes
Random thought: Songs! What to download!
Mood: Happy!