Keeping Out of Direct Sunlight

We are the ones with the radiating eyes. We are the Ones who have a fire inside. We are the ones only we can recognize. We've been rejected (we've been rejected)- Suffered the ignorance, suffered the selfishness, been pushed so far down now comes our time to surface. Turn from the light, that made them all go blind. We've been protected (we've been protected) ALL ARISE TO WHAT WE BRING,OUTSTRETCHED HANDS, UNFOLDED WINGS. We've hurt ourselves, and I feel the sting of broken hearts and burning wings...

Thursday, February 1, 2007

So day one of finals are over. I have completed my last day in Dance class. I will never have that class again. I'm kinda saddened by that. I mean I like that class. It's fun to do the tango, swing and other dances. Hmm oh well. So when I got to school I went to the third floor like normal and not realising my first class was in the basement today and not on it's normal third. Well anyway I chated a little with who was up there. Steve had had twelve cups of coffee so he was wired and entertaining. He was having trouble forming sentences and was like pacing back and forth. After awhile I get a call from Mons saying,
"Where are you?"
"The third floor."
"Where's your class?"
"Oh umm the basement."
"Why are you up there?!"
"Uh everyone is up here like there are tons of people up here like twenty."
"Can you come down here? I can't get the locker open."
"Okay bye."
Yeah so Meggs and I went to the basement. When we got to the locker we couldn't find Monica so I was going toput my stuff in my english class but I heard Mons call me. Ben had made her walk up to the third floor. So I opened the locker and then we went to english. English was boring, we didn't have a final. We were watching or suppose to be watching a movie on Mark Twain, it was boring. Meggs and I talked a little bit then she feel asleep which she looked very serene and pretty. My eyes wandered a lot so I watched a few people mostly Ryan and Zach 'cos they do interesting things well Ryan does and well Zach is just pretty but most of the time I just laid on my desk with my eyes closed wishing I had music. When we had twenty minutes of class left the subsitute let us talk amonst ourselves so Meggs and I talked a bit. It was funny. It was near the end of class and Zach got up to stand near the door and well my eyes followed and he turned and I think he saw me. I snapped my vison back to Meggs who was talking and she laughed. I hope he didn't notice. Oh well I guess it doens't really matter if he saw me anyway. I only look at him to give me something to do. Well next class was Dance. We practiced a few times then decided just to get it over with. People liked it even though we pretty much made half of it up on the spot. People seemed to like our outfits. We were all in short or fairly short black dresses. Ms. Anderson asked us to do it again for her TA for extra credit and we agreed but then she yelled to the class that we were doing ours again. S we pretty much did our dance in front of the whole class. Oh well people seemed to like it. Lunch was an hour today. Mons spent most of her time in the counsler trying to fix her schedule. When Steve came he was still slightly wired. He told us that he didn't like looking at people in the eyes because he like feels what the person feels. I told him to look me in the eyes. He couldn't look very long. He made a comment about how I surpressed my feelings and how he could usually see how I feel. I told him to tell me 'cos half the time I don't know how I feel. I've also noticed that Steve hugs me longer than before. Hmm yeah. Not much else happened. I think I have to send my letter tomorrow if I hope for it to get there on the 5th for Adam's birthday. So after lunch was my last class of the day and my first real final, Algabra. Oh goodie. I was worried about that one but it was easy. But the end completely comfused me. Our answer sheet had 35 spots for answers but the test only had 33 questions. I just figured that they were freebies and left them blank. I didn't want to ask him. So if anything, I know I got two questions wrong. When I finished I still had an hour left so I read. That passed the time quickly. On the way to the bus I saw a kinda cute boy but he was smoking so yeah, not cool. I told Josh and he was like
"so and so?" I can't remember the name.
"I don't know, the kid smoking."
"The one in white?"
"Yes."
"That so and so! You think he's hot?!"
"He's kinda cute but not hot."
"I'm going to tell everyone you think so and so is hot. Ryan! Come here."
Yeah but we found our bus so we ran to it and he didn't tell anyone. When I got home, Kathie told me she had to use the internet so I went to my room and worked on my story but I fell asleep like on the keyboard. I was awoke by my phone ringing. I answered and it was Monica. I started freaking out I thought I had slept to long and had like missed school or something but then I realised I had only slept an hour. Monica was saying about how her car wasn't working and her mom wanted to know if my dad could call her. Yeah I was out of it. I was still asleep. My dad called right after that. He said he was going to be home late because he was going to go up and see my sister Emily. I smell pizza. Kathie and I are splitting a pizza. Ooo looks good. Ow hot! I'm too impatient for my own good. It was funny once my dad made me a pizza and he set it on my bed and goes, "Be careful it's very hot." I waved my hand at him, "Yeah, yeah." He left and I was like screw waiting, I'm hungry and well it was very hot. I burned my whole mouth. Still haven't learned a thing. After tomorrow, I don't take finals for months. Tomorrow will be fairly easy. All I have is Chemistry, US History, and TA. Chemistry is my only final and Sophia said it was easy. It's Multiple choice so it should be. I guess the bonus questions are like "What's my middle name?" I don't know his middle name, I can't even remember his first name. He's just Mr. Boyd to me. Yeah that was my day. I just saw the weirdest thing. I was going to the bathroom and all of a sudden this black spider falls and hangs near the wall. I jumped back. It swung there and kept hitting the wall then all of a sudden it fell, again I jumped. I hate spiders. Well it just laid on the floor on its back, not moving. It twitched once but that's it. So I have just offically seen a spider die, naturally. It was so weird. It freak me out. I'll look later to see if it's actually dead. I dont want the thing alive. But I feel proud that I have actually seen one die by something other then my shoe. I feel them crawling on me though, damn things. Ekk. Yeah that was my day.
Music: My Name is Trouble by Nightmare of You
Random thought: I need to download my Nightmare of You
Mood: Void

Lala, So this is the last time that I'll hold your hand. I want to kiss your mouth and tell you I'm your biggest fan, lala, and making love to your memory, lala.

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