Show me how to shine now.
*Awesome guitar solo! With awesome ninja like riffs flying everywhere!*
Have you turned, turned to dust?
I saw an insect learn to fly;
Have you ever seen the kingdom of the flys? (its form was scorned)
Have you lost the sense of touch?
I saw it stay in sovereignty.
Have you ever turned to dust?

That would be Catch a Hot One by AFI. Great and awesome song.


Lie in comfort of sweet calamity with nothing left to lose.
Lie in the darkness, I'm slowly drowned to sleep
Nothing left to lose.
Three tears I've saved for you.
I'd retrace the steps that lead me here but nothing lives behind me.
So I lie in this field bathed in the light that loves me,
With nothing left to lose.
Three tears I've saved for you.
Will you be my, be my beloved?
Will you help, help me to get through?
Will you be my, be my destruction?
Will you help, help me to be through?
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh
Will you be my, be my beloved?
Will you help, help me to get through?
Will you be my, be my destruction?
Will you help
Three tears I've saved for you

Ever And a Day by AFI. Beautiful song. Will you be my beloved? Hmm reminds me so what shall I do for Valentines Day? Probably nothing. Got no one to spend it with so it's just another day. And then right now I see Kathie and my dad kiss...oh well like I said, I gave up on love. Hmm nice, my dad didn't even say hi to me...I'm so loved. Bah. So last night Josh said he had a present for me but I don't know what it is. He didn't mention it today so he either forgot or he is waiting for tomorrow. I don't like not knowing things. Oh now my dad says hi to me. He asked me how long till my jacket arrives...2 to 6 weeks...I'm checking now to see where they are. It says domestic orders take 3 to 7 business days...haha so he says it should come by Friday! Yay! That's much better that 2 to 6 weeks! Can't wait. I hope it fits. I got in size small...I'm figuring it's in guy sizes 'cos it didn't say...It would suck so much if it was too small. I just didn't want it to be big 'cos my jacket right now makes me look fat and I feel comfy but fat in it plus it has that stupid paint stain on it. Well yeah , anyway. So today...umm lets see...nothing to interesting or at least nothing I can remember. I found out what had happened with Kathie at the hospital. (I die in the daytime!) She didn't need a blood transfusion...imagine that. It had actually gone back to normal. She has a bladder infection though and under the insision is something rather, that's why she's still in pain. Yeah they have her on antibiotics...yay more drugs. I wonder if she'll ever get better. I guess only time will tell. Today was pretty much a normal day though. I had some cake and candy. I'm gonna get fat. Wow, I'm jumpy...my dad dropped something and I like jumped out of my skin. Hmm yeah I have nothing to say.
Music: Dream of Waking by AFI
Random thought: Why can't I think of anything interesting that happened?
Mood: Indifferent/Blank

Dream of Waking by AFI
I feel it washing over me,
the slow poisonous tide.
Pins and needles dance on me.
Sickness undefined.
Now I'm afraid to face the sky.
Please someone hear my haunted cries.
Please let them waken me. x4
With eyes sewn shut I still can see (I end up somewhere)
All that is surrounding me (Somewhere between)
Between a dream (I end up nowhere)
And motionless reality, will I forever lie?
I feel them binding so smoothly.
I see myself below.
I feel it gnawing, eating me.
Poisonous and slow.
My mind it speeds.
My voice has died.
God let me make the faintest cry.
Please let them waken me...
GO!
With eyes sewn shut...
Binded by my hands,
bind my legs,
bind my eyes,
bind my mouth,
bind everything.
Opened up and for the taking
Just one touch and I'll be yours.
Opened up wide for the breaking.
Just one touch and I'll be yours.
What's on the other side behind the mirror?
To try (I try) to break the static keeping me here in between.