This was written last night, by the way but I had fallen asleep on the keyboard so it didn't get posted.

Today was…what’s a good word? Today was perplexing and lack of sleep wasn’t much help either. I was awoken last night around 1am by this annoying high-pitched scream…and it was my name. Kathie was saying something about a gun. I just laid there kind of numb I guess. I just listened to them fight and the only thing that stirred any emotions in me was when Kathie brought me into their argument by saying he was going to hurt me. That is the one thing that pisses me off more than anything. They can fight but don’t use me as a chip and try to use me to make the other person feel bad. I didn’t sleep much after that. I got ready like usual and because I hadn’t showered the night before, my hair was still fairly straight and didn’t have to spend much time on it which gave me extra time. I decided to go to the computer to see if I could listen to Catch a Hot One by AFI once before I left. My dad came out and I was grabbing some candy, he touched my coat and said that it was still soft. I just walked away. I couldn’t believe he was acting like nothing had happened last night. For christ sake, he had held a gun to himself! I just turned the song off, grabbed my bag, said "Bye, love you." and left. I didn’t want to deal with it. When I got to the bus stop I had my weird numb feeling like normal but it was different. I had a feeling that I was gonna cry by the end of the day…yeah it didn’t take long. Josh gave me a Kit-Kat on the bus. It was his way of helping and it did. When I got to school, I went to the orchestra room with Bryan and Josh and we saw Mons and Ben. I started to help Mons study when she asked what was wrong. I told her nothing but she could tell I was lying and so I told her then I started crying. Yeah so we walked to the locker but I hadn’t done my math homework so I was gonna do it in first so I kept my book and while going up to the 3rd floor, I lost Monica. So I was walking and kind of with my head down. I still had my hood on. I had stopped crying by then. When I got to the 3rd floor, I tried to make it in the Chemistry room without anyone seeing but I didn’t make it and Mike made the most fucking awful comment ever.
"Don’t look so emo."
I looked up at him with daggers in my eyes. "Shut up."
And with that I stormed into the room. I went to my seat as slowly as I could. I felt awful. I noticed that Meggs had followed. She came over and asked what was wrong and I broke down. I cried so hard on her shoulder. I was like hyperventilating. The few other students in the classroom got uncomfortable so I decided to go to the bathroom. Before leaving the room, I asked Mr. Boyd if the bathrooms on this floor were open. He didn’t know and it ended up that they weren’t. Dumbass people. So we stood by the bathroom door and I cried. Kelsey walked by and she stopped. I told her what happened.
She was like "We need chocolate. Chocolate makes everything better."
And this advanced to boys dipped in chocolate, which evolved into us going to Medford, drugging and then kidnapping Davey and dipping him in chocolate. That did cheer me up a bit. So after this we went to class. Steve gave me a nice and long hug. The whole period, I helped Mons study and I kept my hood on the whole time. I wasn’t asked to put it down until partly into English. Today was our first advisory day. That was after 3rd and we learned about our culminating project…well sorta. Lunch was fun. I bit Ben in the back a couple times and we hung out in the sub basement. I did badly on my health test. In 5th I just told Sophia what had happened and listened to music the whole time. Sophia and I are suppose to hang out tomorrow and I’m gonna spend the night at her house. Sunday I might go to Emily’s dedication so I wanna dress all scary and gothic and she’s gonna help me…if my dad even lets me go. He doesn’t know if he want’s the conflict. So after that I had my math test. It wasn’t so bad. On the ride home, Josh and I just chatted. When I got home, I found my dad home and found out that Kathie has been going out and buying booze while we were gone. She is going to go to detox next week or something because if she goes cold turkey she might have seizers or however they are spelled. For a couple of hours, I worked on the AFI mystery. Later, Mel and Mons show up. It freaked me out because I was home alone and such. They were having their date and were in these short dresses. They brought food, we talked then they left. Then we went out to dinner. We went to Red Lobster but I was in a weird mood and wasn’t hungry and didn’t want to eat so all I got was some clam chowder. My dad ordered two shots for Kathie. I don't understand, why give alcohol to someone about to go to detox? I don't know, I don't want to think about it. Behind us were two guys on a date, they were cute and next to us were two lesbians. I’m not gonna lie, they weren’t very pretty. My dad and Kathie like freaked out and was like, "What’s this world coming to!" I just ignored them. They talked and I just sat there with my hood up, stirring my water. My subconscience was in deep thought or something but I was thoughtless. I pretty much just stared blankly into my water. I had no thoughts. So then I came home and took a long shower. It felt good. I have to call Sophia.
Music: None
Random thought: Famous Last Words by MCR is stuck in my head
Mood: Tired