Sophie: Lol why the fuck is it snowing
Me: Because its awesome! I was so excited when it started!
Sophie: Lol. But its not sticking
Me: I know :( I so want snow!
Sophie: Lol you on the 61?
Me: Yes I am
Sophie: Sweet. I might see you. =D
Me: Yay! So exciting! :)
Sophie: Yay! Its freaking cold.
Me: Uh yeah it s. I was so cold on commerce and then the bus was late lol
Sophie: That sucks. I see your bus.
Me: And I have to pee. I see you
Sophie: Lol that just makes everything better huh
Me: what does? Seeing you or having to pee?
Sophie: Having to pee
Me: Oh yes cos the feeling of about to pee my pants is so awesome :p
Sophie: Lol totally. I van full of mexicans just passed us lol
Me: Haha thats awesome! They're probably about to mow some lawns :p
Sophie: In the snow. Hahahahaha
Me: Yes exactly! Snow needs to be mowed too
Sophie: O of course. It grows quickly.
Me: Oh very quickly. You have to keep on that or soon you'll have a snow forest to deal with
Sophie: Yup. Then the yeti will move in and eat them
Me: Very true and no one wants a yeti problem on their hands. Thats far too much work. Those guys never want to leave
Sophie: Lol dude we show have one and make friends of them and they can be like guard dogs but way cooler
Me: Okay! I'll start on our snow forest then to attract them

That would be a bit of the text message conversation between Sophie and I, spelling errors and all. Also forgive our racial jokes, they were said in good humor.

Tokyo Rose <3

Oh I forgot to mention my oh so lovely morning...

Okay so since my dad got a job (finally, he has been looking forever now) he can no longer drive me to school in the morning. I have to bus it, which sucks major balls. Anyways, I woke up at 5:30 this morning so I could take the bus and get to school on time. Because of the bus system I pretty much have to get to school an hour early or be late to class and I HATE being late plus my professor marks you down if you're late too often. Well I got on campus to find my class cancelled, and since it's Tuesday, I don't have HD 101 meaning I didn't have class till 10:30. I could have slept for 2 more hours! I was so pissed.

But tonight I have to go in to fill out paperwork for my new job (finally!). Ha working at Taco Bell is gonna suck but a job is a job and if I don't get money in my bank account, I will have to drop out of school and the whole paying for bills thing requires money. It will be nice to finally not have to worry about if we can find help to pay for the bills. Maybe we'll be able to have heat again! Very exciting. Oh and I can finally buy a new sheet for my bed. This one has a huge ass hole in the middle. Oh and birthcontrol again! Thats super exciting. I'm getting sick of puking my guts out every month.

Oh and I found another amazingly beautiful picture of Andy 6. This kid is seriously the hottest guy on this planet.



Oh and this one is just adorable...



This kid would be perfect if he liked seafood, drank, and didn't smoke lol BUT I still adore him anyways. His sweetness and kindness makes up for all of that :D

So about a week ago, I had this dream:

Okay so it was during a zombie apocalypse and kinda the end of the world. We were at this house and it was sunny outside. A few of us were in the kitchen and the rest was outside. Tom was outside. Someone walks up to me with this tape and something else. I think it wa a note or something but I can't remember. They pointed outside to Tom and said it was from him. He started telling me like instructions but I was irrated that Tom was doing something like this so I waved off what the guy was saying and walked away to see what was on the tape. I get to this room and watch the tape. It was a slideshow of pictures. The first was of Tom and Ben smiling and I can't remember the others but the last one was a small video of Tom and me. He had his arm around me and then suddenly he kissed me and I was so happy in the video. The dream me got all sad at the memory. I never looked at the note but I think it was the song he wrote for me that he lost before he could show me. Then I woke up.

So Monica and I think it's that I miss the feeling of being with someone with it being close to Valentine's Day and all because I don't have feelings for Tom anymore. It was a really odd dream and I don't like the thought of him being back in my head. Then the night of Valentine's Day I had this dream:

I was dating this older guy that was in the same band as Tom. My boyfriend was sitting on the bed doing something and we were talking when Tom and the rest of the band comes in. My boyfriend asks me if I want to finish making the food we were making so we get up and hold hand for a bit but not the whole way. Then somehow I get to the kitchen before him so I start making it before him. He soon walks in and helps. We talk and have fun but not affectionate.

Then I woke up and had a friend request on facebook from Tom. It freaked me out. Gah, stupid mind. I want him out of my head. The second one, I don't know what it means. I feel as if the the fact that my "boyfriend" and I aren't affectionate is important though I don't know how.

Well anyways, thought I should share lol.

Bio 9:30-10:20 MTThF
Lab 8:30-10:20 W
Pre cal 2 10:30-11:20 daily
Creative writing (Fiction) 11:30-12:20 MWF
Toning 11:30-12:20 TTh

Does that not sound complicated?! I'm gonna overload myself. I'm worried but I really need to get some credits. What's sad is that that is still not a full load. Thats only 14 credits...

http://www.buzznet.com/tags/ronnieradke/video/4364051/exclusive-ronnie-radke-prison-interview/

I'm not on either side. I personally like both Craig and Ronnie and it's stupid how people will be jumping back and forth between liking one and hating the other after just hearing what they said about the other. Ronnie is sitting here saying how they were talking shit about him and not getting over it and yet right afterwards he goes and calls them all names like a Tijuana hooker and such but valid he immediately afterwards says that that was immature so he is at least trying. I think they are both at fault. I have seen Escape the Fate since Craig joined and he didn't once mention Ronnie. But Ronnie did bring up a good point, every time Craig sings an Escape the Fate song written by Ronnie, he is being judged. And wouldn't you get irritated after awhile of constantly being compared to someone else? I don't think he went about it the right way by talking shit but Ronnie of all people should understand that people make mistakes. I think that going to prison has changed Ronnie and I'm very glad that he has become clean. I just hope that once he is released that he continues to stay clean and follows what he has learned. When I saw Escape the Fate before this all happened, the whole band was extremely rude to me and my friend. We went to their signing before they played and they didn't even look up at us or say anything to us. They were too busy talking to each other. Another time Ronnie passed right by me and I went to say hi and he just ignored me and then later he was trying to find his way out and I went to help him and again he simply ignored me. Valid, he might not have heard me but the signing alone sort of ruined their show for me. When I last saw Escape the Fate, I missed the signing so I can't judge that but seeing them play, I could see how different they were and they seemed to be a lot nicer. Craig seemed very appreciative that we came to see them and thanked us. It was a very different show from when I saw them with Ronnie. Also the "Team Radke" shirts kinda point that fans need to choose a side. You are either on "Team Radke" or "Team Mabbitt". Though I will admit that after hearing this interview, I have a lot more respect for Ronnie and I'm stoked for him to get out and release an album. But this all really boils down to Ronnie's word over Craig's. The only people that really know what really happened are them so honestly we have no merit to judge either of them because we are only getting secondhand knowledge. Well thats all just my opinion.

I just realised a beautiful song. Prelude in C major by Bach. So pretty! Reminds me of the days when I wanted to play the harp.

Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage for Devin

MyHeritage: Family tree - Genealogy - Celeb - Collage - Morph

Like OMG! What an episode! I screamed at the end at the fact that I have to wait 7 days to see what happens! AHHHHH!

Well it is Thursday again. You know what that means? Yup Vampire Diaries!



Oh and if you haven't heard of a band called Get Scared, you should totally check them out. They are pretty amazing. I'm enjoying this whole picture posting thing so here is a picture of them.



Well I was gonna show more but I can't quite remember what about...
I am so freaking sleepy! Stayed up far too late. Oh well I am excited for tomorrow because we are going over some Robert Frost. Great poet.

The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth; 5

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same, 10

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back. 15

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

That is the poem we are reading tomorrow but this is one of my all time favorites...

Fire and Ice

Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.

Okay Vampire Diaries now! Byes

As you see, lately I've been into seeing who my celebrity look-a-likes are thanks to the new Facebook trend. By people I've been told Madonna and Lady Gaga. I don't know if that is a good thing or not lol. But MyHeritage.com seems to disagree and a lot of my results have come up with Asian celebrities so I guess my Italian heritage isn't coming out. My favorite celebrity look-a-like result though was Mick Jagger. Simple amazing, haha.

So today I finally realised how people see me different. I figured people did by how I dress and look but I never really saw it till today. I had to present and analyze the poem Facing It by Yusef Komunyakaa in front of my English class. I was supposed to be engaged with the class so I asked many questions and no one would answer. I think I got two comments. I didn't think much of it till the next person got a lot of comments and questions and when the professor went up, the class asked a bunch of questions about my poem. STILL I didn't think much about it but finally it really sunk in when I went to my math class and this guy that has my English class was talking to the guy he sits next to and he was saying, "Yeah I felt so bad for her. The whole class was dead silent." After that it seemed like everyone that came in didn't sit next to me. I don't know it could simply be my imagination. I know the people who talk to me like me and I have made a few friends since starting there but my closest friend that I had made had to drop this quarter for financial reasons.

I assume this isn't new but I probably didn't notice because I had so many friends in high school or maybe my high school was different. I mean this isn't the first time I've been treated different but oh I don't know. This isn't going to change anything. I love how I dress and look. It makes me happy and that is what matters. I just found this all weird and I've been feeling lonely lately I guess. Everyone is off at different colleges and I'm still here. I have Missy and Sophie which is SO nice. I don't know what I would do without them. I just feel so lost. A guy would be nice but I don't have much hope in that.

Well sorry for the depressing post. Here is a picture:

Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage

http://www.myheritage.com/collage

MyHeritage: Family trees - Genealogy - Celebrities

Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage

MyHeritage: Family trees - Genealogy - Celebs - Collage - Morph

Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage

MyHeritage: Celebrity Collage - Free genealogy - Geneology

Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage

MyHeritage: Family tree - Genealogy - Celebrity - Collage - Morph

Holy bananas, two posts in one night! Aren't you lucky? Well I just wanted to say that every Thursday Missy and I get together to watch the new Vampire Diaries because we are cool like that. Cheese and fries, I am so excited!




Song: Enjoy the Silence covered by Anberlin

Blah, I don't want to do my homework.

Long time no type! Haha sorry pals. I'll make a quick little list of the new things in my life :)

~FINALLY got to see the lovely AFI in concert (1/22/10)
~Bought myself a laptop (11/27/09 Black Friday)
~In college :) (Started 9/28/09)
~Got fired from Target (11/19/09)
~Completely over Tom and we're kinda friends
~Met the most awesomest boy at Warped Tour but he never called (8/15/09)
~Bought two Ferrets. Doodle and Ferrah (Date unknown :P)
~Doodle died (1/26/10)
~Named three pairs of shoes (Batman and Robin, Mini and Mickey, and Bonnie and Clyde)
~Working "Cheese and fries!" and "Holy bananas!" into my vocabulary (Since yesterday)
~Andy 6 is my new lust-fest
~Working on watching all the seasons of Sailor Moon. I'm on season 4
~Followed everyone and has began Tweeting
~Dyed my hair blonde with purple tips
~Dyed my hair brown (12/26/09)

Umm that's all I can think of and look I knew all the dates except a few. Go me!



See isn't he so hot?!