Written a couple weeks ago...yeah I'll get better, I swear, lol.

Today it actually hit me how much I love AFI. I mean I was worried there for awhile that they didn’t really mean as much as I thought they did but now…now I know they are so close to my heart. I was watching a bonus feature on I Heard A Voice and Davey was talking about the lyric "One at a time, constants become surreal. One at a time, heart attacks are concealed. I can see that I lose the joys of life." and he was talking about losing what you love and while he was talking, tears swelled in my eyes. It just hit me how much they changed my life and how much they mean to me. As I’m typing this, tears forming. It’s hard to explain what they’ve done. I can’t remember what it was like without them and I can’t imagine what it will be like without them. Oh my god, I can’t even think that without crying. Throughout the whole interview of all the Despair Faction members and the band, I was getting tears and I knew that I needed to become a member and I know now that I will not regret it. I have a greater urge now to tell them how much they mean to me and how they have saved my life and that I’m forever eternally grateful. I just want to meet them and thank them. They mean the world to me.