Wow, my last post have all been sad. Good news! I bought two AFI albums, Answer That and Stay Fashionable and Black Sails In The Sunset. That means I just need Shut Your Mouth and Open Your Eyes, and I'll have them all! I also bought the Blessthefall album. It is amazing but I already knew that, thanks to technology.

I can't breathe out of my nose. I feel like shit. I'm so fustrated and sick. I don't know what to do about David. Nothing has happened and if it continues like this my body will completely wipe out any feelings I once had for him. I just want to know if he likes me back or not. If not then I can just move on. I'm tired of making the moves. That's not who I am. I'm submissive and I like it that way. Plus, I don't wnat my feelings just to disapear. This is the first time, I have ever really liked someone and I don't want it just to go away just beacuse my body is retarded. That is why I am actually trying to make this thing work out. I don't know what to do. I'm just tired and worn out. It seems like a lifetime since I've rested.

My heat beat has been so fast ever since around the time David was mentioned at work today or that's what I think. I don't know but there is a sharp pain in my gut sometimes and my heart beat hasn't slowed. I'm worried this means something bad. I have to talk to Monica about it.